Late Night Panic Attack

Last night\’s panic attack was a shock to my system. I haven\’t felt like that in such a long time. And normally when I feel that way, my heart is racing and I feel like I\’m fighting for my life. This time was a little different; I didn\’t have a racing heart and was aware that I was having a panic attack.

The small subtle differences in the way I feel during each attack confuse my brain and make me think, \”girl, this isn\’t a panic attack, YOU\’RE DYING!\”

But once I can release control back to my body and see that it\’s really just a panic attack with different physical manifestations, I start to find some relief. So I went back and forth between feeling like I was dying and feeling like it was all a stupid joke. Just talking to my husband about taking some medication to get rid of the attack made me feel better. But it would continue to return a few moments later.

That\’s when I knew I needed to take some of the medicine I\’m prescribed for moments like these. I just hate taking prescription meds; I feel like I\’m not supposed to put that stuff in my body. I try to go a more natural route and have been using CBD to manage my anxiety the past 2 years. It usually works great, but it\’s not quite what I need to stop an actual panic attack.

After I popped a pill, I went and laid down in the kids\’ room to decompress. It\’s funny; they cause me a lot of anxiety during the day, but at night when they\’re asleep and still, they are the best comforting balls of peace that I need in my life.

I\’ll probably continue to medicate throughout the day to keep me at level 0. Normally after I take medication, I don\’t take it again for over a year. Let\’s hope it\’s the same this go \’round.